rollin rollin rollin

brynn has been learning to get around a bit by rolling over, finally! i mean i wasn't going to be disappointed if she took a longer time to learn how to roll, but i am so glad she's doing it before she's four months old :) gives me nothing to worry about.

she learned how to roll the other way first, of course. she learned that a couple of days ago. i am so proud, she did them both within the same week! that is insane lol

every morning she wakes up happy, no fussing or crying, usually. she's my good baby ;) this is a video i got of her talking to me in the morning a couple days ago

she's also been grabbing her toys and tasting them. she prefers tasting them over actually playing with them ahah :) we got her a few new toys, that aren't hanging down toys, because she needed more toys to play with when she's playing on the floor.

playing with her new toys

next we're going to start working on sitting up and eating different foods :) we bought a couple of cereals for her bottle and a couple of baby foods to feed her with a spoon. she tried jello but she wasn't into it. she has also tried mushed up bananas, which she ate pretty well.

tanner's mom bought her a swing, which she likes i'm pretty sure. she likes when i tickle her feet before she swings back again lol

byrnn swinging forward holding her cow

that's my sweet baby :)

wheels are a blessing and a curse

well unfortunate news. i have had two more episodes of sleep paralysis. the second time i was napping with byrnn because i fell asleep watching netflix. i was dreaming i was in the backseat of a car with a little girl who wasn't dressed and wasn't buckled in, but i realized that it couldn't be real and that i must be dreaming, so i tried to wake up and it happened. i was kind of scared brynn would wiggle away and i wouldn't be able to catch her, but she was sleeping too. i tried moving everything, my fingers, toes, face. the best i could do was pucker my lips slightly. i came out of it by taking a really deep breath and just focusing on my breath. i didn't hallucinate or imagine anything in the room or anything. it wasn't terrifying at all, besides me worrying about brynn getting away.

the third time, i was going to sleep and i had brynn next to me in bed. i put her with me because she sometimes won't fall asleep unless her binky is in her mouth. i don't remember if i was even dreaming or anything but i became aware like before but couldn't move. i tried everything again, and i've come a little farther. i was able to hum a little bit. i think i came out of it by going "back" to sleep and waking up again. and like the second time, i didn't hallucinate or imagine anything. i think it's because i know what's happening, and i've been sleeping with the lights on haha.

i hope it doesn't happen any more but if it does i'm not sweating it like before. as long as it doesn't become horrifying.

my grandma bought a new car recently and gifted us her old one. we've been out and about, which is both awesome and bad. for example, we went to the chinese buffet twice in the same week.

my typical plate. some kind of chicken, fried rice, lo mein, egg roll, and krab rangoon ;)

mom found my coke bottle

since noah started school, i've been going with mom to pick him up at his bus stop. while we're in the car we usually stop places. it's great but it's going to make me fat.

i've been trying to eat less recently. i noticed i don't eat much during the day any way so nothing has changed, i am just aware lol. i need to eat healthier, though. today i had six vienna sausages, a slice of pizza, three cookies, half a bag of sunflower seeds, and three cans of vanilla creme pop. and i'm about to go have some thin mints. ridiculous

next month, i'm going to start doing project document your life. i don't know why i didn't start it earlier. i think it's because i thought i didn't have enough going on in my life to make them interesting, but i do. i at least have enough to make a few minutes interesting. i have the music picked out and everything, i'm not going to not do this.

why is mustard so mad for

as planned, on saturday i went with my cousin to do her senior pictures. not as planned, we weren't able to shoot at the park of roses so went around downtown and stopped when we liked what we saw.

mostly we re-did the shots they had before, and i don't know how to say this without sounding cocky, but we did them with my skills and nicer camera.

it was a pretty long day, we had the baby and she mostly slept through it :) she almost always sleeps when we go out somewhere, which is awesome. 

i started a photo journal, and for real this time. we were required to have one in photo class but i wasn't into taking notes or making sketches back then. everyone else had cute little notebooks and pens and i just thought it was silly. but now i've dedicated a notebook and a pencil to my photography journal and i am very glad i did :D 

i don't want to post her pictures, i didn't ask how she felt about them being online ;)

brynn had just woken up and was fussing but my camera always gets her attention. also why are babies still cute when they're drooling? it is a mystery

on sunday morning i had my very first and hopefully very last experience with sleep paralysis. it was terrifying, and it wasn't even as scary as an experience as some people have said they have had. i woke up, like, in my brain, but my body was shut off. i got the chills and goosebumps, but instead of flushing over and going away, i had permanent goosebumps for a few minutes. i couldn't hardly get my eyes open, i could twitch them, though. i couldn't open my mouth, or make a sound. i wasn't having visual hallucinations, thank my lucky stars. i couldn't get my eyes open long enough to have any. but i did have a few creepy auditory ones. i thought i heard people whispering like they were in the room, like you know in tv shows when there's background chatter.

then when i came out of it, i messaged my brother noah and had him sleep at the foot of my bed for until tanner came home from work. dad doesn't believe it happened to me because he's very skeptical, which can be both bad and good. apparently having noah in my room half of the night isn't evidence enough. why would i randomly invite my smelly dweebling nerd brother to reduce the length of the bed, unless i was scared to death? it's not worth trying to defend this to dad though, he literally could not care less, probably. i love my dad but this is why i tell him like maybe two personal things a year.

anyways to end this post here are a few silly instagrams i've posted within the past week:

tanner made this joke up

a chocolate bar telling me sweet nothings

my mom's most recent fortune cookie

i just noticed they're all food related

bronzed, blonde, and blue-eyed

i went out today with tanner's two little sisters, skyler and lizzie, to try out my new camera lens a little bit more. dad and i read reviews that it was a good portrait lens, which i agree with, but i think i would like it better for portraits in a studio setting. we did an outdoor shoot.

firstly though, i had to do their makeup because that is probably the second most fun part of a photoshoot, is preparing the models lol. i did skyler's nice and smokey and dark, while lizzie, whose makeup i have never done, i kept fresh and young ;) it was one of my best looks yet, it was so peachy and creamy.

good angle for lizzie

she was worried she wouldn't know how to pose for images, but she's a natural

the best shot i got today

this wasn't skyler's first rodeo; i used to use her as my model in my photography assignments

you can see her makeup well here

testing out the macro lens

her eye color is debatable, it's sometimes green sometimes blue lol

a couple of days ago i walked over to my friend's house, like i said i would, even though i was nervous about everything of course. i don't walk around outside by myself often enough apparently :) i lived, and i met her girlfriend, her dog, and her girlfriend's pretty little sisters. i didn't bring my camera because i didn't have a practical way of transporting it. we walked to the park and just hung out for a while, then walked back to my house so that they could meet the baby.

me and cassey

the romancing trees

yesterday i put brynn in an ohio state shirt, which is my home state obviously. my grandma come over to our house, and she is probably one of the biggest buckeye fans i ever did know :) my mom kept pressuring me to get a picture of her in it so she could post it to facebook.

my happy buckeye baby

tomorrow at ten thirty in the morning, my aunt is picking me and mom up to go to the park of roses and do my cousin's senior pictures. i'm really hopeful and excited. when grandma was over, she was telling me about how their last weekend was sort of a dud. the person that came out with them to do them didn't do so great, from what she tells me. this is going to be the easiest and most successful shoot ever, i can feel it

jabbering with her toys

here's a video i got of brynn playing with her hanging down toys that mom got for her bouncer. she rarely ever gets the owl that plays the song, so i'm glad i got it on video :)

a particularly thrifty tuesday

i went thrift store shopping today with tanner and my mom, because tanner is short on jeans and pants are particularly expensive for his budget. unfortunately, tanner didn't get anything that fit right except for one tee shirt. and due to the unique nature of how thrift stores are run, there pretty much is no return policy. and even if there was we can't find the receipt. brynn slept through all of it except when we were checking out, she wanted to cry and get everyone's attention so they all come running over to coo at my baby crying. i don't mind, i don't dress her cute for nothing heh

i did my makeup for this occasion, because i haven't done my makeup in a while and i had a lot of time to get ready this morning :) i tried tight-lining my upper lash line, but it is very scary and tickly. i never put eyeliner on the lower waterline though because my eyes are already squinty enough. there is a bit of transfer though but it's ok.

but, i did make out with five new shirts and four new pairs of jeans. one of the pairs i bought was too small around the waist. i actually believe my bone structure is permanently changed since having brynn; my hip bones are too wide for a certain variety of size eight pants. i'm now wearing a size nine. if i ever break to size ten jeans i think i'm going to cry. we also got brynn a few things, including a super cute 6 month sweater dress with a little deer on it. i can not freaking wait for her to fit it omg

then we went to frisch's :) brynn was pretty chill, but she was hungry so we fed her while we waited on our food. then she needed a diaper change, so i went the bathroom with her, to find out there was no changing station. it's no wonder the employees were giving me funny looks while i was going in with her lol. i changed her on the sink counter with a little mat that came with my baby bag, then i wiped the area down. luckily no one came in and had to wash their hands because i literally took up the whole sink counter.

tanner drinking sweet tea, his favorite

tomorrow i might be walking over to my friend's house, where she lives with her girlfriend i think. i was going to take brynn in her stroller but i'm not comfortable with that idea. it's a twenty minute walk and i don't know if it's practical. i'm glad i'm going to see her though, i haven't seen her since her graduation party two years ago. that is crazy omg i think i might cry when i hug her haha

last monday or sunday or saturday idk idr my aunt contacted me and told me she needs me this up coming saturday to do my cousin's graduation photos. i'm pretty stoked, but nervous. i just hope i don't forget anything, and that we'll have a good atmosphere. and that there are no technical difficulties. my cousin and i don't see each other as much as we used to, and now we're a little more grown up so what even is there to talk about? it's so weird how close we are, but an outsider couldn't tell.

that was my day. except for this one thing brynn did but i'm giving that it's own post ;)

decision making isn't my strong suit

the title is punny because this post is also about playing cards

my dad bought me a ten dollar google play card the other day so i that i could buy things for my android phone in the google play store, and after a lot of unnecessary consideration i bought ariana grande's album yours truly and lana del rey's album ultraviolence. i'm a horrible decision maker and it took forever to decide what i wanted to get lol :)

yes this is a literal picture of my screen and not a screenshot don't judge me ok

i'm two songs into yours truly so i don't have any thing else to report. and i haven't heard a single song from lana del rey's album yet, so i'll make a post in the future about my thoughts on them.

google play music keeps track of how many times you hear a track and that makes me nervous. you can also rate each song with a thumbs up or thumbs down, which also makes me nervous. i know i don't have to rate them if i don't want but if i do end up rating one, i'll have to rate all the others because that is the way that i am.

after playing card games with my aunt on saturday, we went to walmart and bought skip-bo and phase 10. last night noah (my brother btw) and i opened skip-bo and played a few games, and today we taught tanner how to play it, as well as phase 10. he's pretty boss at it. tanner's very quick at learning card games, i saw that today. i haven't seen him have so much fun in a while i almost forgot he had the capability heh

this is what skip-bo looks like

also i gave my self a haircut. but that is a post for another time

that is all

rainy saturday card game day

my aunt and my cousin came over and took me, my mom, and my brother to her house to hang out and play card games. we played skip-bo and phase 10, which were really long games. i won phase 10, despite my opponents' efforts to skip me every round lol ;) brynn just napped most the while in her car seat.

brynn being held by her great aunt tracy

buttons the cat

a grasshopper that was outside all day

obligatory moody rainy window shot

water droplets on a tiger lily, another obligatory shot

zipper the dog

googley eyed chin face

i had the most genius idea today, to put googley eyes on my baby's chin and film her upside down :)