bb

i have decided to try to start calling brynn bb because it's her initials and it also sounds like baby lol. maybe it'll stick, but i'm not gonna force it.

i felt like making another brynn post! these are all of the good pictures i have of her since the last all brynn post :)

these are from when my sister came over to see her for the first time!

my sister feeding brynn

my sister playing with brynn

we were waiting on tanner's ride to work with brynn of course

brynn's daddy kissing her up

her eyes turning hazel

brynn trying out the grass

some instagrams of course

brynn sucking her thumb

brynn's new friend olly

brynn loves this pokemon toy

yesterday at my aunt tracy's house

brynn has been taking interest in dogs

brynn and her cow toy

byrnn smiling for mommy's camera finally

one last good one i like, even tho i look a mess

brynn being spoiled sleeping next to mommy in her bed

document your life

my first osu game

my friend came over earlier this week so that i could photograph her for her youtube channel art. it was fun, and she's really cool. i think i did a good job for her? we didn't get a lot, which is ok, but i would have loved to have spent more time with her and shot more. i edited them for her and sent them to her on facebook while she was here.

this is the one that got the most likes and comments on facebook isn't she a doll?

the other day i went to dairy queen to apply for work there. my cousin works there and she's helping me get hired. i'm hoping to get it, but also nervous because i'm used to just being at home with brynn all day. plus mom is going to work until elections again this year so she might not be able to babysit for me. my aunt keeps saying we'll figure it out and that it'll work out but i don't know.

after i applied, i had to wait on mom to pick me up, so i sat outside at a bench under a tree. i saw a lot of high school aged kids getting off from school and walking home. a guy started walking over to me and he asked if he could use my phone. i lied and said that i was charged by the minute so he would make it quicker lol. i asked him what he needed it for and he said to "call one of his dudes". we started talking a little bit and we've been messaging online ever since. he asks me to hang out with him every day but i don't because i have the baby, and i can't just ask mom to watch the baby while i hang out with some random guy who needed my phone behind the dairy queen.

my sister lizz invited me to go to an osu game, so i had tanner's mom babysit brynn and went with her, her boyfriend, and his sister who is amber who i've known since we were like 12. it was pretty cool all in all.

at first, i was positively terrified of how high up we were and how huge and relatively dangerous the 'shoe is. everyone kept asking me if i was ok, and i said i was, and i really was, but i felt queasy for a minute and was probably colorless.

then i settled and started enjoying being there and watching the game. also EVERYTHING WAS RED everything and everyone

red everywhere red

we won ;)

:D me and amber

:) amber and me

my sister lizz and me

after lots of hours and grueling work, blood, sweat, and tears, i finished editing my document your life video for september! i'll post it tomorrow. it's unlisted on youtube, i'm doing to make it public and share it on facebook and twitter and also this blog lol. it's pretty freakin great, i think, and i can't wait to make more :)

the thumbnail picture for the video on youtube

b is for brynn

i think im gonna start doing entire posts dedicated to just brynn and her shenanigans these days.

today brynn is going to be five months old in about a week, which is crazy insane amazing.

she grabs at things, gets a hold of them, and grips it like a pro now. she gets better at sitting up on her own every day, to the point where we can just hold her hands and let her wobble a little and balance her ownself.

brynn sucking her bottom lip

brynn getting her foam letter b

she brings everything to her mouth which makes me a nervous wreck. i have to keep everything that she can choke on out of reach. she pulls my hair and chews on it, if she can get away with it.

we have bumped her up to 6 ounces every four hours. she still eats like a little breastfed baby because she's spoiled ;) i don't mind.

she went to her four months old appointment and got the same set of shots as her two months appointment. i had to go alone and it's probably harder for me to watch her get her shots than for her to get her shots. she cries for a couple of minutes, then is over it, while i am sad the entire week afterword

she has a lot of new seating things for her to sit in recently, for whatever reason. we have a walker, that she's good in. her high chair is a little too advanced, but she'll be using it soon. and today my sister handed down a little spinny seat thing with toys on it.

my sister lizz on my dad's side came over to see her for the first time, and she had the whole experience. brynn pooped, cried, and needed fed, and she changed, comforted, and fed her :)

now here are a bunch of brynn instagrams :)

brynn sleeping at a decent hour

i put the mallets between her toes lol

getting her feet

most things she tries to bring to her mouth just hit her forehead instead

killing a cow

poor baby was sleeping before she got her 4 months shots

she started talking to the baby on the box

sleeping peacefully in my arms because she almost won't sleep any other way

homies from high school

for the first time ever probably in my life i went to an official family reunion. it was my dad's side of the family. they hold one every year but i finally got to go this year with our little branch. everyone there i have talked to on facebook, but meeting them and talking to them in real life was way more awesome than connecting on facebook.

i dont think im gonna post the family picture because there's a lot of people in it and i can not know for sure if they are all ok with me just posting their picture randomly around the internet.

one of my friends from high school spanish class came over with his fiancee and met baby brynn. she didnt want any pictures of her, but sean was ok with it lol

sean meeting brynn for the first time

my document your life video is going so amazingly well. i decided to start editing it so i wouldn't spend a whole night doing all of it and potentially not posting it one the very first of october.

i'm using a song i asked permission to use from an unsigned band, so hopefully there are no legal issues there. they personally emailed me back saying i could use the song i asked for, which was awesome. it was a song that was available to download for free. it goes so well with the video i almost want to cry every single darn time lol

now i'm on the hunt for next month's song. i have six weeks to find one, which is a lot of time, but im worried i won't find one as perfect.

one of my friends also from high school just started a youtube and needs me to do pictures for her channel art, which is like a really awesome thing. i havent seen her in forever, i love her, she's so nice, and i can't wait to do that for her.

ok now here are some of my silly instagrams from this past couple of weeks :)

sprite in the pantene area?

balancing half and half tower

my brother's handwriting

sprinkle covered caramel apple

i searched anagram and it suggested nag a ram

my cousin's fridge magnet collection

a butterfly debatably named porch

so mom and i were just chillin' on our front porch, mindlessly observing nothing, when i spied with my little eye a strange little hanging green pod. we both were one hundred percent clueless what the heck it was because third grade was a very long time ago, and i did not remember what a butterfly chrysalis looked like. apparently they look like this

a monarch butterfly chrysalis a couple days before it's emerging

and we did a lot of googling and found out they take a couple of weeks to bake before the butterfly makes his appearance. we thought we were going to have to wait forever, but we were wrong. the next day, our chrysalis began to darken

a monarch butterfly chrysalis about 24 hours before emerging

then over the course of the day he became very dark and slightly transparent, so that you could see his wings

you can already tell it's a girl

overnight, i was worried he'd break out and fly away without saying goodbye but i was not disappointed! in the morning we got a butterfly! mom ran upstairs and got everyone to come down and see her, it was kind of a huge deal because we didn't expect her so early :)

a monarch butterfly drying out her wings

she was there pretty much the entire morning. it was rainy and humid, so i guess that made drying out her wings take longer. which, pft, was awesome, cos she was just there all day, fine by us heh

later, while we were out chillin' on the porch, she started climbing up to higher ground and flew off. i was taking pictures and she like picked up her little foot and angrily shook her fist at me lol

our butterfly climbing up with her wings spread out

now all we have left to remember her by is her empty chrysalis :(

it's still there lol

our butterfly used to be a caterpillar and that is amazing. caterpillars turn into butterflies. in two weeks they turn into butterflies. just because. crazy

rollin rollin rollin

brynn has been learning to get around a bit by rolling over, finally! i mean i wasn't going to be disappointed if she took a longer time to learn how to roll, but i am so glad she's doing it before she's four months old :) gives me nothing to worry about.

she learned how to roll the other way first, of course. she learned that a couple of days ago. i am so proud, she did them both within the same week! that is insane lol

every morning she wakes up happy, no fussing or crying, usually. she's my good baby ;) this is a video i got of her talking to me in the morning a couple days ago

she's also been grabbing her toys and tasting them. she prefers tasting them over actually playing with them ahah :) we got her a few new toys, that aren't hanging down toys, because she needed more toys to play with when she's playing on the floor.

playing with her new toys

next we're going to start working on sitting up and eating different foods :) we bought a couple of cereals for her bottle and a couple of baby foods to feed her with a spoon. she tried jello but she wasn't into it. she has also tried mushed up bananas, which she ate pretty well.

tanner's mom bought her a swing, which she likes i'm pretty sure. she likes when i tickle her feet before she swings back again lol

byrnn swinging forward holding her cow

that's my sweet baby :)

wheels are a blessing and a curse

well unfortunate news. i have had two more episodes of sleep paralysis. the second time i was napping with byrnn because i fell asleep watching netflix. i was dreaming i was in the backseat of a car with a little girl who wasn't dressed and wasn't buckled in, but i realized that it couldn't be real and that i must be dreaming, so i tried to wake up and it happened. i was kind of scared brynn would wiggle away and i wouldn't be able to catch her, but she was sleeping too. i tried moving everything, my fingers, toes, face. the best i could do was pucker my lips slightly. i came out of it by taking a really deep breath and just focusing on my breath. i didn't hallucinate or imagine anything in the room or anything. it wasn't terrifying at all, besides me worrying about brynn getting away.

the third time, i was going to sleep and i had brynn next to me in bed. i put her with me because she sometimes won't fall asleep unless her binky is in her mouth. i don't remember if i was even dreaming or anything but i became aware like before but couldn't move. i tried everything again, and i've come a little farther. i was able to hum a little bit. i think i came out of it by going "back" to sleep and waking up again. and like the second time, i didn't hallucinate or imagine anything. i think it's because i know what's happening, and i've been sleeping with the lights on haha.

i hope it doesn't happen any more but if it does i'm not sweating it like before. as long as it doesn't become horrifying.

my grandma bought a new car recently and gifted us her old one. we've been out and about, which is both awesome and bad. for example, we went to the chinese buffet twice in the same week.

my typical plate. some kind of chicken, fried rice, lo mein, egg roll, and krab rangoon ;)

mom found my coke bottle

since noah started school, i've been going with mom to pick him up at his bus stop. while we're in the car we usually stop places. it's great but it's going to make me fat.

i've been trying to eat less recently. i noticed i don't eat much during the day any way so nothing has changed, i am just aware lol. i need to eat healthier, though. today i had six vienna sausages, a slice of pizza, three cookies, half a bag of sunflower seeds, and three cans of vanilla creme pop. and i'm about to go have some thin mints. ridiculous

next month, i'm going to start doing project document your life. i don't know why i didn't start it earlier. i think it's because i thought i didn't have enough going on in my life to make them interesting, but i do. i at least have enough to make a few minutes interesting. i have the music picked out and everything, i'm not going to not do this.

why is mustard so mad for

as planned, on saturday i went with my cousin to do her senior pictures. not as planned, we weren't able to shoot at the park of roses so went around downtown and stopped when we liked what we saw.

mostly we re-did the shots they had before, and i don't know how to say this without sounding cocky, but we did them with my skills and nicer camera.

it was a pretty long day, we had the baby and she mostly slept through it :) she almost always sleeps when we go out somewhere, which is awesome. 

i started a photo journal, and for real this time. we were required to have one in photo class but i wasn't into taking notes or making sketches back then. everyone else had cute little notebooks and pens and i just thought it was silly. but now i've dedicated a notebook and a pencil to my photography journal and i am very glad i did :D 

i don't want to post her pictures, i didn't ask how she felt about them being online ;)

brynn had just woken up and was fussing but my camera always gets her attention. also why are babies still cute when they're drooling? it is a mystery

on sunday morning i had my very first and hopefully very last experience with sleep paralysis. it was terrifying, and it wasn't even as scary as an experience as some people have said they have had. i woke up, like, in my brain, but my body was shut off. i got the chills and goosebumps, but instead of flushing over and going away, i had permanent goosebumps for a few minutes. i couldn't hardly get my eyes open, i could twitch them, though. i couldn't open my mouth, or make a sound. i wasn't having visual hallucinations, thank my lucky stars. i couldn't get my eyes open long enough to have any. but i did have a few creepy auditory ones. i thought i heard people whispering like they were in the room, like you know in tv shows when there's background chatter.

then when i came out of it, i messaged my brother noah and had him sleep at the foot of my bed for until tanner came home from work. dad doesn't believe it happened to me because he's very skeptical, which can be both bad and good. apparently having noah in my room half of the night isn't evidence enough. why would i randomly invite my smelly dweebling nerd brother to reduce the length of the bed, unless i was scared to death? it's not worth trying to defend this to dad though, he literally could not care less, probably. i love my dad but this is why i tell him like maybe two personal things a year.

anyways to end this post here are a few silly instagrams i've posted within the past week:

tanner made this joke up

a chocolate bar telling me sweet nothings

my mom's most recent fortune cookie

i just noticed they're all food related

bronzed, blonde, and blue-eyed

i went out today with tanner's two little sisters, skyler and lizzie, to try out my new camera lens a little bit more. dad and i read reviews that it was a good portrait lens, which i agree with, but i think i would like it better for portraits in a studio setting. we did an outdoor shoot.

firstly though, i had to do their makeup because that is probably the second most fun part of a photoshoot, is preparing the models lol. i did skyler's nice and smokey and dark, while lizzie, whose makeup i have never done, i kept fresh and young ;) it was one of my best looks yet, it was so peachy and creamy.

good angle for lizzie

she was worried she wouldn't know how to pose for images, but she's a natural

the best shot i got today

this wasn't skyler's first rodeo; i used to use her as my model in my photography assignments

you can see her makeup well here

testing out the macro lens

her eye color is debatable, it's sometimes green sometimes blue lol

a couple of days ago i walked over to my friend's house, like i said i would, even though i was nervous about everything of course. i don't walk around outside by myself often enough apparently :) i lived, and i met her girlfriend, her dog, and her girlfriend's pretty little sisters. i didn't bring my camera because i didn't have a practical way of transporting it. we walked to the park and just hung out for a while, then walked back to my house so that they could meet the baby.

me and cassey

the romancing trees

yesterday i put brynn in an ohio state shirt, which is my home state obviously. my grandma come over to our house, and she is probably one of the biggest buckeye fans i ever did know :) my mom kept pressuring me to get a picture of her in it so she could post it to facebook.

my happy buckeye baby

tomorrow at ten thirty in the morning, my aunt is picking me and mom up to go to the park of roses and do my cousin's senior pictures. i'm really hopeful and excited. when grandma was over, she was telling me about how their last weekend was sort of a dud. the person that came out with them to do them didn't do so great, from what she tells me. this is going to be the easiest and most successful shoot ever, i can feel it